Sex and a guilty conscience

[agent47]

Hi bros, this thread is just for me to use as an outlet of my grievances. I'm so called leading a double life, a good son just starting out in a good career(hopefully) and with a gf of many long years. doesnt do drink/club.. but on the dark side, an guy who has trouble controlling his desires and going for FLs for the past few years. I have noone to let this out to and here is the only way i could think of coz nobody knows abt my 'second life'. This is not a medical health issue but more of psychological.

The main reason currently why I still go for FLs, is coz my gf is a strict abstinence believer. and self pleasure is getting too boring. so i look for FLs in sbf who are value for money. Im sure this is pretty common for most of us guys. But for me my guilty conscience kicks in everytime after my first shot. i start thinking abt my gf, my money, and my health. i once had a friend who told me..what for go for fl..if you put $100 on your head and masturbate, you will still feel satisfied and your money still there. what he said was true..only for sometime till i have the urge to fuck again.

my preferences: minah or teens(above 18 of course) eg. bro sinful desires's girls.
Today was an eye opener of what I'm actually doing.
had an fl who i knew thru chat who aeroplane me halfway thru the course. suppose to be 2 shots but ended up 1 shot and she said she'll be back but nv did. i was scared she ran of with my stuff but luckily it was still there.. i left the room minutes after she did.

ive also had some worry of infecting STDs. i havent get myself tested..but will do soon. iv nv done raw on FLs..but i did paint them before.

but havent you thought how much all that money that went to fucking can buy you?

$100 could last me for 2 weeks of meals..
$40 could for a bj could have been used to give my siblings some pocket money. there are many more ideas..

ill write more soon

If any bros who feel that i'm wasting space or trying to psycho others out..i'm sorry..it wasnt my intention. im just letting out my feelings here..pls ignore if its not ur liking.

[havefun3]

i understand u dude. i am also the same.. masturbate will only satisfied u for a time being.. at the end of the day u still need to penetrate... the only difference with u is that currently i do not have a gf.. but i am wooing one now.. i am trying to stop that but always small head lead big head... sigh.. like u always after shooting.. start to worry about other things.. family , health ,money ...etc.. it been 2 weeks i had sex.. hopefully i can tahan not to visit fl... good luck to u and me as well as other brothers..

[Cunt-Sucker]

Thank God! Finally someone who's having the same troubling issue! & I thought I am probably the only fucker who's having this kind of contradicting feelings ...

I'm actually married, but CO not into sex, so being a new-age sensitive guy, gotta respect her instead of forcing myself onto her. Been doing it by myself for the longest time, sometimes, yes, I do try to comfort myself by thinking of how much $ I saved, how safe it is, how I'm able to face CO & kids with a clear conscience ... but more often, I was weeping inside my heart after my own shot, thinking of what a loser I am, hiding inside toilet doing by myself despite my marriage, how much I yearn the feeling of a pussy wrapping around my dick, how nice it feels to have a partner who can participate thoroughly, whole-heartedly and at least pretend to enjoy doing the act with you ... & that's when I will sometimes succumb to the dark side & cross over ...

I've been thinking: So what's exactly the cause of all these? Uncompromising CO / GF? Or just we guys are born fuckers who must always get into pants of women? or maybe both? :o

[tobby]

Ya manzz...i am equally frustrated. Every time i request, i get turned down. Ask 10 times, 9 times no. Tried telling my wife of my needs but she never improve. So after a while, i dont even feel like asking anymore. So i resort to my right hand and lots of porn.
Tried FL once but i was so nervous i could not get an erection. After that never tried.

I guess end of the day. i dont think it is wrong to find a FL to ease our needs. But you must know how to clean your mouth after eating. Dont let it wreck your marriage or relationship.

Money can earn back. I think $100-200 is rather reasonable for a good session. They are paid to please, it is the kind of service you will never and should never expect to get from your wife. GF i think can. GFs are forever horny during the courtship. After marriage, sex will only go downhill.

If you are young and having a GF, please dont think of commercial sex. You can get all the sex you want from your GF.

2 cents worth

[delayer]

i guess it really depends on many factors?
Maybe stress? or scared of getting pregnant?
before getting married. Had your CO/gf changed alot?

hope my other half dont change. she has been nice to accommodate my needs even when she has headaches.

[maxman]

Hi bros, this thread is just for me to use as an outlet of my grievances. I'm so called leading a double life, a good son just starting out in a good career(hopefully) and with a gf of many long years. doesnt do drink/club.. but on the dark side, an guy who has trouble controlling his desires and going for FLs for the past few years. I have noone to let this out to and here is the only way i could think of coz nobody knows abt my 'second life'. This is not a medical health issue but more of psychological.

The main reason currently why I still go for FLs, is coz my gf is a strict abstinence believer. and self pleasure is getting too boring. so i look for FLs in sbf who are value for money. Im sure this is pretty common for most of us guys. But for me my guilty conscience kicks in everytime after my first shot. i start thinking abt my gf, my money, and my health. i once had a friend who told me..what for go for fl..if you put $100 on your head and masturbate, you will still feel satisfied and your money still there. what he said was true..only for sometime till i have the urge to fuck again.

my preferences: minah or teens(above 18 of course) eg. bro sinful desires's girls.
Today was an eye opener of what I'm actually doing.
had an fl who i knew thru chat who aeroplane me halfway thru the course. suppose to be 2 shots but ended up 1 shot and she said she'll be back but nv did. i was scared she ran of with my stuff but luckily it was still there.. i left the room minutes after she did.

ive also had some worry of infecting STDs. i havent get myself tested..but will do soon. iv nv done raw on FLs..but i did paint them before.

but havent you thought how much all that money that went to fucking can buy you?

$100 could last me for 2 weeks of meals..
$40 could for a bj could have been used to give my siblings some pocket money. there are many more ideas..

ill write more soon

If any bros who feel that i'm wasting space or trying to psycho others out..i'm sorry..it wasnt my intention. im just letting out my feelings here..pls ignore if its not ur liking.

You are not the only man who feels this way. Very surely, many other men feel the same too.

A good friend and I both have girlfriends who agree to sex but we still don't feel satisfied.

[NewMartin]

Ya manzz...i am equally frustrated. Every time i request, i get turned down. Ask 10 times, 9 times no. Tried telling my wife of my needs but she never improve. So after a while, i dont even feel like asking anymore. So i resort to my right hand and lots of porn.
Tried FL once but i was so nervous i could not get an erection. After that never tried.

I guess end of the day. i dont think it is wrong to find a FL to ease our needs. But you must know how to clean your mouth after eating. Dont let it wreck your marriage or relationship.

Money can earn back. I think $100-200 is rather reasonable for a good session. They are paid to please, it is the kind of service you will never and should never expect to get from your wife. GF i think can. GFs are forever horny during the courtship. After marriage, sex will only go downhill.

If you are young and having a GF, please dont think of commercial sex. You can get all the sex you want from your GF.

2 cents worth


You Are The Man...very agreed with u man bro..i am facing the same problem with u too..cheers:)

[wohaha96]

We should keep this as sticky, hide all the nicks so that one find day one good reporter will see this trend and write a article on it. :o

It's not we wanted to cheat, we hate the guilty feelings and the infinite loop of internal struggle but we do have our needs. With uncompromising CO, it just adds to the stress we are already facing.

There is love and natural need. But when needs vs love, it's very painful. :(

[neocheang]

wow.....finally someone voice out what most of us men is facing. But what am i gona say, not so sure weather is this the correct thread...
am in early 30s...had a stable gf. like all bros here. am much into FL. is not that my gf refuses to give me. is just that, of all my gf. this current one is not sexually attracted to me...... AT ALL!!!
though she has a pretty and cute face, but just that her body doesnt attract me to it. she's not fat. just little fleshy on the stomach and tigh.
the most we do it twice per month!!!!!! am i really that bastard???! she is the most caring gf , those wifey type.but seems that no matter how hard i try..i cant seems to get interested to bonk her at least twice per month..(she did complain to me). i know tis is not healthy in a relationship.
EVERY week. i would bonk a local FL... each time ranging from 150 to 300! am i really that sick? any also after bonking them.... i dont feel any guilty conscience!!
any bro care to share their exprience????? plssss
any bro faces the same problem as i am with the spouse?

[Fatboy39]

Yo bro,

If you feel this way,that means you are still human.
Continue to play it safe though.
Don't bring STDs home to you close ones and you're just fine.
Remember, money for family first.
Fuck FLs only when got more than enough.
Love your family first, love your penis second.
I can safely say I understand you bro.
Goodluck with life in hornyness!

[too_hot]

i understand u dude. i am also the same.. masturbate will only satisfied u for a time being.. at the end of the day u still need to penetrate... the only difference with u is that currently i do not have a gf.. but i am wooing one now.. i am trying to stop that but always small head lead big head... sigh.. like u always after shooting.. start to worry about other things.. family , health ,money ...etc.. it been 2 weeks i had sex.. hopefully i can tahan not to visit fl... good luck to u and me as well as other brothers..

For me, the difference btw pcc and FL/WL is not (entirely) about the penetration, its also about having another warm (female) body, the interaction, etc....but sometimes its actually caused by boredom (!!). ya i know it sounds stupid but being single, sometimes really nothing to do and you know what they say, "an idle mind is the devil's workshop"....especially when go orchard and see some of those mini skirts, etc etc. will need to release the tension/urge...at least i dun have gf to feel guilty but i do feel guilty abt wasting money on short term thrill....

[Gerald Tan]

Sigh..if only GFs and Wifes know and understand the situation of their BFs or Hubbies, then this sorry state of practical world can be limited or eliminated.
But i guess..life is like dat...meanwhile, let's us enjoy life to the fullest with responsibility and caring...

[agent47]

Well, i guess many of us have different and some have similar views on this.

Probably a guy with a well-endowed and pretty face gf with a mid-hi sex drive may not have so much of this problem coz he has a 'clean' way to let go.
i feel for you guys who already has a CO, yet..not getting much action. Sex to me is rather different without the love. A simple session with hugging/kissing and simple penetration(compared to a porn movie type) with the wife would satisfy us enough. I'm not married yet but have been with my gf for a long time and sex b4 marriage is a no-no to her. probably those married could have some talk time or 'induction' with her for a pleasureful marriage.

Its true, money can be earned. but what if those who go for weekly sessions or maybe twice weekly? that counts to like 400-800 a mth based on a $100 FL. and we know its a rarity to find $100 locals(usually minah can find) or those which give good service.. good for you if you have money set aside for this and your desires can be control. And the risk of STDs is also higher. $800 to get STD? not for me.

BUT despite saying this, dicks will be dicks and desires will still come. but if we dont address these issues with our loved one..it will be a vicious cycle. and CAN we address this with them in a comfortable and maturely in the first place?

[orneryjoe]

It's all down to the nature thing -- men (and maybe women too) are genetically hardwired to crave for sexual variety. We can't help it.

We can't help feeling guilty either. This is not genetic, but almost just as strong, because of our cultural identification with the "virtue" of monogamy.

Genes and culture make us into what we are -- this wanting more and yet feeling guilty about it is an excellent example of that universal truth.

It's not a vicious cycle by the way -- most people just find a way to live with these conflicting emotions within us. It's part of the human makeup.

There have been attempts to resolve the situation -- some people who are more enlightened agree to enter into open relationships. But in our cultural environment, this is next to impossible for most people who are trapped in the conventional notions of marriage and relationships. For the younger people out there, it may not be too late but for most married people, our fate is sealed.

Take the example of Tiger Woods, and nearer home, Jack Neo -- how they suffered because of what they had to go through. Were they really immoral people or just normal human beings like most people here?

[too_hot]

Its true, money can be earned. but what if those who go for weekly sessions or maybe twice weekly? that counts to like 400-800 a mth based on a $100 FL. and we know its a rarity to find $100 locals(usually minah can find) or those which give good service.. good for you if you have money set aside for this and your desires can be control. And the risk of STDs is also higher. $800 to get STD? not for me.



Well, moderation is the key. I will be happy enough with one session per week. So abt $400 to $500 per month max.

Going after a local gal will easily cost u a more than dat - and u may end up with nothing in return! Nice dinner once a week will already cost more than one FL then comes all the gifts especially on bday, xmas and valentines. Not to mention, she may ask u for this favour and dat favour. If her family gets into trouble (eg. parent warded to hospital) somehow u also will help (wad to do, u love her right?). Then u tink when she finally accept u is ho seh liao. Then wedding how? honeymoon how? Also big bomb. My fren getting married soon and he told me he paid almost $10k for wedding ring (huge!) and 1mth (!!) honeymoon another $10k. Then the dinner also he pay (hopefully he can recover that cost). And i have to say, the gal not very nice also but so demanding. He also LL. After the wedding, comes the marriage. Can the marriage last for 30 or 40 yrs? maybe after all ur effort to go after her and finally get her, in the end regret (as some bros mentioned here) or you or ur wife got affair? life is so unpredictable.

So for me, FL/WL is the straightforward way to get wat u want without all the hassle. I still have my freedom. I can "play" as long as i want (some of my married frens told me after the first few years, they don't bonk anymore and their wife is just "someone he lives with"). As long as u know ur limits, sometimes can get some gfe and kc from FL/WL too.

Sorry if above is pessimistic and i am sure got many happily married couples out there - i am just not lucky enough to be one of them. But i am at least lucky enough not to be one of those in unhappy and messy marriage...

[Antitai]

this is simple human desires, after a certain period, you are required to unlaod. after many years you have sex experience, you shall seek more exciting sense to satisfy your sexual. we talk another way, if you always bonk one woman ( wife) in you life, do you think that you may loss a lot as you only eat a food in your whole life.

Please bear in mind, if you can put your family in first and ensure that sufficient maney for your bonking outside, so do worry, you go ahead.

your life is very short, years of erection of your dick is shorter than your life. you enjoy sex times is shorter than your dick erection. when you are old, you see young meimei in street, at least you have memory to re-taste what you had experieced is not olny for your wife.

[Sam The Caterer]

Very true... interesting thread.

[Herich]

So for me, FL/WL is the straightforward way to get wat u want without all the hassle. I still have my freedom. I can "play" as long as i want (some of my married frens told me after the first few years, they don't bonk anymore and their wife is just "someone he lives with"). As long as u know ur limits, sometimes can get some gfe and kc from FL/WL too.

Sorry if above is pessimistic and i am sure got many happily married couples out there - i am just not lucky enough to be one of them. But i am at least lucky enough not to be one of those in unhappy and messy marriage...

Well said bro. Share the same thoughts with u. Marriage is overated. haha

[RealEstateGuy]

Hi bros, this thread is just for me to use as an outlet of my grievances. I'm so called leading a double life, a good son just starting out in a good career(hopefully) and with a gf of many long years. doesnt do drink/club.. but on the dark side, an guy who has trouble controlling his desires and going for FLs for the past few years. I have noone to let this out to and here is the only way i could think of coz nobody knows abt my 'second life'. This is not a medical health issue but more of psychological.

The main reason currently why I still go for FLs, is coz my gf is a strict abstinence believer. and self pleasure is getting too boring. so i look for FLs in sbf who are value for money. Im sure this is pretty common for most of us guys. But for me my guilty conscience kicks in everytime after my first shot. i start thinking abt my gf, my money, and my health. i once had a friend who told me..what for go for fl..if you put $100 on your head and masturbate, you will still feel satisfied and your money still there. what he said was true..only for sometime till i have the urge to fuck again.

my preferences: minah or teens(above 18 of course) eg. bro sinful desires's girls.
Today was an eye opener of what I'm actually doing.
had an fl who i knew thru chat who aeroplane me halfway thru the course. suppose to be 2 shots but ended up 1 shot and she said she'll be back but nv did. i was scared she ran of with my stuff but luckily it was still there.. i left the room minutes after she did.

ive also had some worry of infecting STDs. i havent get myself tested..but will do soon. iv nv done raw on FLs..but i did paint them before.

but havent you thought how much all that money that went to fucking can buy you?

$100 could last me for 2 weeks of meals..
$40 could for a bj could have been used to give my siblings some pocket money. there are many more ideas..

ill write more soon

If any bros who feel that i'm wasting space or trying to psycho others out..i'm sorry..it wasnt my intention. im just letting out my feelings here..pls ignore if its not ur liking.
Brother, obviously you have an illness similar to alcohol addiciton where you cannot control yourself and could ultimately destroy yourself and those who love you. Not sure you actually love them because of what you are doing. Ever think about the ramifications of giving your innocent GF and STD. You describe yourelf as a winner in SG society with a good education and job and a GF etc. So why risk what you have? I suggest you seek professional help for your sex additiction.

[agent47]

HaHA. Thanks for sharing your views gentlemen.

Sensitive Topic

Has seized my will to go find a bonk (also because vit M). But with some of the guys here who frequent FLs, WLs...despite using protection..don't you feel scared of contracting HIV/STDs? I know to some its bad mouth to say all this but have you ever wondered after bonking diff women and thought "shit, do i have..?". coz it scares the hell out of me. planning to have myself checked at Dr Tan in the new year just to have a peace of mind. Maybe you guys should too. Consider it a..routine health check with all the "activities" that we take part in.

[sinns18]

bro same here..all these while i have been wanting to go for a checkup..but everytime i think of what if the results gonna be positive, i would hold back thinking what would be the next step..how am i going to live a normal life again??

but ive made up my mind to go for the checkup alrdy..as all these negative thoughts keep affecting me every now and then..its better to face it then to live in denial and fear..

[freezetheDB]

i totally understand where u coming from Bro TS.

The desire to eat out is very strong, especially when it comes to BJs (and HJs) where i can just sit back and just enjoy (with GF, you need to be more concerned with how she is feeling, how you are performing, etc...)

thats why I try to focus more time on my passion (music and art).

I try to lead a more balanced life, and try not to be sucked into the abyss by addiction to sex.

[agent47]

Well, I am certainly not a winner. I've resist temptation for the past week. I'm starting to sound like I'm trying to quit smoking than screwing.
The only reason I'm here for is to see bros views here on this topic. I hope some have found light in which ever way you choose be it in the hole or something else. If you are like me and need to let it out, do share here. We are still humans..though men don't really like to share their feelings..Its somewhat a therapy. and here its anonymous. and you'll find that..your burden is a little less heavy to endure.

[Rainbowfish]

How about those who wife is pregnant ? At least few months cannot bonk and after wife give birth also cannot . Anyone in that shoe ? Not so guilty to finf FL?

[wtfuad]

well, i do feel for u bro. but i think that's how singaporean women want...to be satisfied rather than satisfying men. in terms of so many things, the level of concern and pampering them. rather than the other way around.

go out and play, always use protection. paying 4+ is inexpensive to protect urself. check every half yearly, just in case. just make sure ur protection doesnt break.

a nurse in dsc once told me....... bj with condom, fj with condom, condom intact, still come for what. don't waste time and money.

this is just to illustrate how confident they are in terms of the level of protection the condom will give u.

but i also did tests, to have a piece of mind. i don't think u need to specifically go to mr tan to do a test of the uncurable disease. u can just go to any clinic that has a sticker saying it has oraquick. hope this helps.

[orneryjoe]

Yep... visiting FLs or licensed sex workers is not exactly a cheap hobby. But it sure is an addictive one. Especially when the whole process is made so convenient nowadays with the help of the Net.

One great advantage is that there are no strings attached. Just bonk and forget, and go for the next one. The ladies don't make demands of you and don't come between you and your family -- so long as you keep things discreet.

Having emotional love affairs is a big no-no because it unnecessarily complicates life. And it's not exactly free as well when one factors in the gifts, the costs of dates and the time spent in wooing.

[fookydud]

Ts, i feel for you too. My current gf is also a strong religious believer and strictly no to pre marital sex. Till now i have not even seen her pussy yet. The most is massage her boobs and just licking it. At my age, i believe my sex hormones are at the highest. I really need it at times but i'm afraid of going to fl after reading how bros her contracted hiv related diseases. Thus i only go for dirty massage who helped me release after that. I wanted to go for one last week but after reading your post made me back out. Its so true, i could have save the money and do so much thing yet. End up i've to resort to using my own hand again. Sigh.

[agent47]

hey bro fookydud,
at least with the hand, your money still there. If your gf end up become your wife, make sure she knows what she's missing =)

[successman]

Ya manzz...i am equally frustrated. Every time i request, i get turned down. Ask 10 times, 9 times no. Tried telling my wife of my needs but she never improve. So after a while, i dont even feel like asking anymore. So i resort to my right hand and lots of porn.
Tried FL once but i was so nervous i could not get an erection. After that never tried.

I guess end of the day. i dont think it is wrong to find a FL to ease our needs. But you must know how to clean your mouth after eating. Dont let it wreck your marriage or relationship.

Money can earn back. I think $100-200 is rather reasonable for a good session. They are paid to please, it is the kind of service you will never and should never expect to get from your wife. GF i think can. GFs are forever horny during the courtship. After marriage, sex will only go downhill.

If you are young and having a GF, please dont think of commercial sex. You can get all the sex you want from your GF.

2 cents worth

definately agree with you.

[ian pa lai]

Ts, i feel for you too. My current gf is also a strong religious believer and strictly no to pre marital sex. Till now i have not even seen her pussy yet. The most is massage her boobs and just licking it. At my age, i believe my sex hormones are at the highest. I really need it at times but i'm afraid of going to fl after reading how bros her contracted hiv related diseases. Thus i only go for dirty massage who helped me release after that. I wanted to go for one last week but after reading your post made me back out. Its so true, i could have save the money and do so much thing yet. End up i've to resort to using my own hand again. Sigh.

Bro.. how old are you btw... if you keen to try hookers i know where is safe and clean.. you at me in msn... [email protected]

[BJ21Boss]

Well the conscience is always there...
The problem is society, biologically we are suppose to fuck every single girl we like. unfortunately as humans we practice monogamy.

Well if you have a Long term GF or a wife, don't waste it all by going for paid sex...
There are STDs that can spread even when you use condoms. etc molluscum and herpes. These are tell-tale signs which give you away.
Like most like-mind bros, if you have a gf/wife, work things out with her.
Tell her you need to weapon X!

[Tripster]

Dear TS and all bros,

This topic is what I call "the hole in our soul". This hole can never be fully filled because it is in built into our DNA. Because we as human beings have imposed some kind of mental prison for ourselves through society, we do not go out everywhere sexing everyone we can find, like monkeys and rabbits.

But our primitive minds and DNA give us this reproductive urge to copulate to ensure the survival of our species.

That is why we men think and feel the urge to fuck everyday. For the younger ones amongst us, do you wake up everyday with a hard on? We are built for fucking, that is natural. So do not feel guilty that you lust or feel the need to fuck a woman outside of your monogamus life (wife or gf)

Some of us are able to tahan, some cannot, some cannot afford thus must tahan, some can afford so no need to tahan - but many brudders I know, after they done the deed, paid the fee...still there is something empty inside which makes them do it again, when the urge comes and the money is sufficient. This cycle goes on and on. Everyday, this story is played out by thousands of Singaporeans across Sillypore and it will never stop. This is the oldest profession, right? Commerical Sex will always be around.

Why? Like what some bros here have said : "Basically, we are fuckers, we need to fuck, it is natural to fuck, but through self control either internally or externally, we suppress those urges. When there is a need, there is a product or service.

Is this healthy? The argument never ends.

What I know to be true and I think many bros can attest to this, is that it is a vicious cycle. Commercial sex will cost money. That is reality - No money, no honey. Can we avoid it? Yes you can, many do.

Should we fuck around? Yes, many do, too!

Do we pay for sex? Commecial? Of course! DO you eat and dun pay? SO IF YOU DO THE DEED, pay!

No money? DIY.

The point I am making is this: Do or do not...it is possible. Your morals and discipline guides you. If you do...BE SAFE. That is responsible to yourself and your family. If you spent money, treat it as if you went for massage therapy. Even gfs and wives do it. Why not you? So don't lament about it. Just fully enjoy the moment and get the most out of the minutes of "passion"

If you don't, DIY...or better still practice sexual yoga and you will become very healthy and strong because you conserve your Qi.

I have been in this scene many years. This story never ends.

Enjoy it while it lasts.

peace
Trip:p

[woot]

Obeying one's innate generic programming is not a sin, neither is acknowledging the power and presence of various hormones that propel you to propagate.

STD and viruses only cull a certain percentage of the population -- this is normal.

Such is the way of the world... since deep down we're just animals.

:D

So why feel guilty when you are simply ensuring the continuum of a species? Charles Darwin would be proud!

[agent47]

Well, what we do here isn't exactly continuing the species if thats what you meant. It's just pure lust and pleasure. Been quite sometime since i went for FL. Recently, told my FB that I will stop looking for her too. and just now i just diy-ed. -_-.
This thread is meant for me and others alike to air their grievances or worries and I'm glad many have given their input to this topic. Its a healthy conversation. Pls speak and let it out. It was my first step to cutting down(if you are aiming for that).

[watmidoin]

me also live double life. very stress smtimes. scared ppl find out. find out will totally shock them. everytime go "mission" muz wear different than usual. big hat n sunglass. use pre-paid card. walk in hotel backdoor. do things gui gui sui sui. den knn scared police raid. or skali big case they check hotel or prepaid card register go become witness. sibei stress. but bohbian. small head need vomit often. else brain also engine stop.

[TigerB]

Listen to what this man says

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rqgsD-IhFtw

[mumbojumbo2010]

me also live double life. very stress smtimes. scared ppl find out. find out will totally shock them. everytime go "mission" muz wear different than usual. big hat n sunglass. use pre-paid card. walk in hotel backdoor. do things gui gui sui sui. den knn scared police raid. or skali big case they check hotel or prepaid card register go become witness. sibei stress. but bohbian. small head need vomit often. else brain also engine stop.
happen to surf ard...wah bro, totally in sync with you on this. Sometimes you try to cut down, scared of getting STDs and after first shot start thinking about family, future, wife/gf...the "what ifs" etc etc but then after a while, got extra cash, see a SYT, small head wins :( Life is so contradictory!

[vhornypanda]

Sighs, I knew I was not the only one. I'm new to the scene since recently broke up wif gf. Even then, she wasn't active but at least I wud get some every few month (sighs). Now no more gal, DIY no kick. I even bought me a flesh light, was great at first but then it bored me out. It just feels different.
Am I the only one who thinks that I'm pathetic :/

[orneryjoe]

Sighs, I knew I was not the only one. I'm new to the scene since recently broke up wif gf. Even then, she wasn't active but at least I wud get some every few month (sighs). Now no more gal, DIY no kick. I even bought me a flesh light, was great at first but then it bored me out. It just feels different.
Am I the only one who thinks that I'm pathetic :/

No you are not the only one who thinks so. I think you are pathetic too. :D