[narathv]

Today, my worst fears of my life came true.

I had my first ever session with a PRC masseur earlier in the day who does massage, JG and HJ.
Towards the end of the session, she did a HJ and the usual GFE stuff, but however I tried, my 2ic couldn't really stand much. And thus I couldn't cum. It is really embarrassing.

The masseur has received many high MRs, so her skill shouldn't be the problem. I can tell that she tried her best to make me cum as well.

I am just worried that I have some erectile problem due to my bdsm fantasies. I have been using thoughts with bdsm fantasies to pcc most of the time.
Could it be because my mind is too attuned to bdsm fantasies and thus I have difficulty cunning from 'vanilla' stuff like a female giving me HJ ?

I am just trying to comfort myself that maybe I am too nervous on my first try with such massage sessions or I just can't click very well with PRC, but it all seems to be excuses?