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Hi all.. I'm sharing my story here as I really have no one to tell to. It's the best place where no one judges me and my relationship.

I'm married and have a very cute kid whom I adore very much. I love or loved my husband very much and really do want us to work out beautifully. I believe I'm a good woman but my husband doesn't realize that nor treasure me. I'm very hurt by all his actions and lack thereof .

I was still studying when I got pregnant. He wanted me to abort but I said I wanted the baby even if you didn't want me. We eventually rom-ed and I completed my studies. Thereafter I stayed home to care for the baby. We weren't staying together and through the pregnancy period I was already lacking emotional affection. I didn't mind not having any fancy dinner or wedding gown or whatever but all I thought I would have would be a great hubby who treats me and baby lovingly. That was all I needed. I could be happy eating plain rice. But after giving birth, my husband didn't provide the emotional and physical support that was needed from my partner as a new father and husband. That alone saddened me deeply but my heart was not broken. It only broke into a zillion pieces when I found out he's been lying to me as well. I don't think he cheated in the sense he made love to someone else, but the betrayal felt like it. A knife stabbed in your back is still a knife stabbed in your back.

The more you love someone, the more hurt you feel when the trust is broken. I couldn't believe it. I couldn't believe this actually happened to me. He, whom I love so very much could actually bear to hurt me like this.

Any advice? I have tried to tell him and communicate with him, but everytime only gets worse. Should I just continue to be good woman and not voice out to him anymore. It seems the only way for this relationship to continue. Do men just grow up with time? Or does maturity whether natural or forced not apply to the male species.