[ashtodust]

Six

My doorbell chimed repeatedly in the silence of midnight.

Whoever it was, he is very desperate to see me.

I opened the door and she stormed into my apartment, stopping right in front of me and looking me in the eye.

Jeanette: Where have you been the past few days? Why are you avoiding me?

Me: You said you loved me. I... I don't know if I'm ready...

Jeanette: What we have is different from what you had with your ex, Thomas... I am serious about you... and I will prove it to you...

She took our her phone and set it to video recording. Looking at the camera, Jeanette exhaled and nodded. She began to unbutton her blouse, revealing the purple lacy bra beneath it. She then took off her skirt and her thongs, showing her gleaming pussy to the camera and spreading its flaps apart.

Jeanette climbed onto me and slid her hands down my chest. I could see from the look in her eyes that she was afraid, and close to tears. Yet she was trying to project an image of confidence and determination. Inclining her face towards mine, our lips and tongues met in an intense, passionate lock.

Her hands searched for mine, and clasped them tight. It was a grip of fear.

To prove her seriousness in this relationship, Jeanette has chosen to take the risk of recording a sex tape of us. She was afraid, yet her love was so strong that she didn't care.

I can't do this.

Prising myself from her, I went over to her phone.

Me: I cannot let you do this, Jeanette. You don't have to take the risk of recording a sex tape to prove yourself.

Jeanette: I know I can trust you with my dirtiest secrets, Thomas. And I'll do whatever it takes to show you how much you mean to me.

Jeanette lurched forward in an effort to snatch her phone, but I beat her to it.

I stopped the recording and deleted the clip.

We sat on the floor against the couch in embrace. Sniffing as tears streamed down my face, I felt my shirt turning wet as Jeanette sobbed in my arms.

Me: I'm sorry... Jeanette... You don't have to prove anything to me...

I could feel the thumping of her heart against my chest.

Me: I love you too... and we can do this...