[Dignified69]

Originally Posted by HalimahYakult

i was meditating this morning and came to this realisation too. when i first started, i was nervous even about meeting with the girls and kinda intimidated by the whole setting. sometimes the anticipation to piak certain girls is enough to get me hard when i'm lying on the bed thinking about it. recently with some girls; even in the shower i see them naked i want to wear my clothes and go liao. the resistance is real and it's not a good thing. not about impotence but maybe how we perceive and view sex as a whole especially after paying for it.

Very well said and heartfelt also. When I would have awesome sex with my sweety, with DFK and tongue fu and 69 and all, in that moment my heart would be full. When I would be painting in 69 with her soft luscious hips above I would tell myself to savour the moment.

But when after these awesome moments she would lay across me with her legs across my body the realisation would be very deep and unsettling that this isn't real. The pain that this would bring would be of a different level.

I am toying with the idea of trying vipasana.