I am guessing TS isn't confused betwen sincerity or motive, but rather the lust factor if she is not around anymore.
Yes, there are many pussy that can equally squeeze his dick oh so well. But addiction to a habitual companionship and sex compatibility is the downfall of men in this game. Hence, TS still ponders on it.
TS, it is not the gold digging you are fearful of. You mentioned giving her some larger amount while in KTV, shouldn't that be valid enough to promote gold digging motive in her? Why only the $200 for laptop is?
Your refusal to give was because you do not see yourself being with her all the way anymore. So you found no reason to spend this money, for you may not get back what you usually get. But now you miss the pleasure with her and you are pondering if the $200 can buy you another shot of it.
In short, you dun really need her. You need some prettier babe and a cold beer to made you more sober
