[Wizard123]

I have been married for 17 years.. 2 boys , 1 sec 3 n and pri 4. I did not touch my wife for almost 4 years.. Physically I found her not attractive as she has put on a lot of weight.. I encourage her to go for exercise, even volunteer to accompany her for walk.. All are turn to deaf ear..all she want is to lay on the sofa n watch TV. Emotionally I also fed up with her as she refuse to even do a part time job to help me in the financial burden.. Thus letting me shoulder the burden all these years.. Now that I cross my 40th, doing rotating shift is wearing me now..apart from it, she let the kids have free play with their computer games. I have used the solve approach by explaining to her that they need to finish their home work before they can play computer games.. Since I work shift I am always tired n she is a full time home maker. She should take care of it. It turn to dead ear again.

I turn violent n canned my younger one yesterday.as he is still on game at 2350h.. He is so additive toward the game n he ignored me.. I canned him and kick my wife toilet door ( she can be in there for a long time reading all play iPhone games)..

Now I feel like moving to my empty room n ignored her completely n get a girl fren outside. Even if it is a fake relation with PRC.. Later on if the kids grow up then I divorce her.. Tired , n stress.. I also see no chance in couselling as it had been like that for past 17 years.. Tired.. Am I a fucking walking ATM machine?