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I just offered her my ears...
There were times when jermaine was unusually moody to the point that the silence seems too long. When I pressed her, she'd just passed me her handphone showing the SMSes.
One of them caught my attention, I couldn't remember word for word but it's bout her husband dumping the kid with her and sleeping in the next room. The relationship got worse with no physical contacts and she felt so lonely, drinking herself to sleep after she tucked in her kid and done with chores.
At this point, can i be blamed for thinking what a loser this husband is? Got a hot looking wife & a daughter, portrait of a happy family, yet behaves like that?!
Then the horny devil in me was thinking something else...
(WTF! Wake up! Leave her alone! )
{but wouldn't the lonely babe yearns to be touched?}
(she's married!)
{but husband not fulfilling his duties..}
(you have a wife!)
{your wife dun need to know...}
(you still loves your wife! U dun love jermaine! It's just lust!)
{so separate your love & lust}
(shut the fuck up!)
"Hello? Hello? U drunk is it?".....huh? A third voice?
"can I have my phone back?"
"oh" I said sheepishly "a bit sieh liao, dunno how to use your fruit phone. See? All black?"
The more she opened up, the more I feel most married couple have their difference. On & off my wife & I also had quarrel. And thou all these drink session, I also opened up my personal life to her. I never do to anyone, not to my family of wife's side. Not even to my close friends. One main reason I opened up to jermaine is that she's not a mutual friend of me & wife, so I feel that my secrets safe with her. There ain't no line of gossip that goes back to my wife. I'm sure more of you can imagine if our wifes learnt of our complains of them thru another woman, a hot babe to boot, all hell break loose.
Jer: "he never appreciate the things I do!"
Me: "ok ok. I buy u a beer"
Jer: "I was doing the laundry and he just push me aside say "xiam" cos I was in his way"
Me: "ok ok 2 beers."
Jer: "2 beers?! I wanna drown myself in beer every night! If not for my daughter. I really dun see how this marriage can work anymore."
Around this time, my wife & I had a bad argument. Is bout some trivial matters that got blown out of control. The content is of not importance to this story. I was quite pissed that I just grabbed a can of beer from the fridge and left the house saying "going back office". It was half hour to midnight.
I entered my car, slammed the door and started to drink. Had a few mouthful. Then I remember jermaine. I took a photo of the beer in my hand and mms her. While waiting for reply, my mind strayed to think of her and what would be different should we met earlier. And some point, I was squashing these thoughts & lamenting how can I betrayed my wife of so many years. Thou the sparkle had somehow diminished, we still had walk thru a long way together.
Buzzzz..... Buzzzzz....