[pitabooom]

Actually if you were to ask me bros, it was an unbridled moment of anger (with work and my life), depression (lao peh died), and alcohol. I am sure being the Man we all are, some things would just tip you over the edge.

Do I intend to go back to that old life? I have no intention of screwing up my HIV Negative results at all. The unfortunate fact is that, despite my explanations to her, she kept thinking it was a deliberate planned fling.

I wonder if me being absolutely honest to her is my undoing as I'd inadvertently gave her my weapon to shoot myself. I have no intention of chasing the ghosts of her past (and in all honesty, she's not exactly a virgin angel). And the unfortunate fact is that she has been trying at times to just dig out that "I'd frequented prostitutes". I am sure all of you here, would understand the difference.

Just wondering if she is doing emotion blackmail to actually force me to stay with her. Each time she does this, each time she questions my fidelity towards her, it wears me down bit by bit. and when I finally lost it all, she comes cries and begs for my forgiveness, only to repeat the cycle a few months down the road when I am talking about something completely unrelated.

I was originally thinking of settling down with her (to the objection of my family), but each time she keeps talking about the past, which wears me down like a grinder to iron. You guys seriously think if it is ok for me? Because the last thing I am actually looking forward to, is emotional and physical blackmail on me, my kids and my assets.

I can of course, dig out all her "sexy talk" with her guy friends if I wanted to. But I chose not to because I have complete faith in her fidelity. But what do you guys think?