[pitabooom]

Unfortunate. But things had been said. I had my guilty past. I decided to face up to it, which is why I made the decision to come to terms to it by telling the one woman that I decided to spend my life with.

Do I love her? Yes for sure.
But does she love me? I'm not too sure. She seems kinda dysfunctional when it comes to expressing her feelings. If I did not major in Psychology but Engineering, I would had disappeared from her life long ago (no offence to Engineering bros! But I'm currently an Engineer too. I majored in Psychology for fun though).

There are some times where I feel like just cutting it loose. Back to the old days of fun. I'm a human being too with emotions and feelings.

Perhaps death will set me free? Maybe so. But I do not wish for the day where she will only open her eyes to truly see things (and not practice selective listening and seeing) when I'm lying in hospital.