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Excellent story, keep it coming
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Zhongyi: bro choose leh China or Gla? we r waiting for u..
Me: China... sorry... Paul: something happend? Me: bro game over... Kelvin: make yrself clearer... Me: u guys go ahead with the game.. i need to be alone. I left the lan room for a smoke.. Paul came out... Paul: what did she sms u? Me: you yuan wu fen! Paul: what is yr plans then? Me: will tender in my resignation 2mr.. duno how to face her... Paul: at this time when u just got promoted? Me: Ever since my break up with jess.. i have lost my focus on work le. Now even worst... how to face her daily? Paul: guess u need time to recover too... Me: indeed i need time to get over from this shit. That nite i prepare my resignation letter and tender the next day... using my leave to offset my notice period, i spent the last half day handing over my work to carol... Jolyn was shocked with my sudden decesion to leave... Jolyn: y did u choose to leave at such a short notice? Me: i am worn out with the recent events already. Jolyn: is it due to my decesion? Me: nothing to do with u. With this statement. i left the office. |
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She rushed out of the office, trying to catch up with me..
Jolyn: i am sorry.. Me: nt yr fault... i am glad that u have come to an decesion. Jolyn: I... Me:say no more.( I looked tenderly in her eyes, wanting to hug her for one last time.. but i stopped myself, dun let yr emtionals get over yrself.. i told myself). Nt daring to turn back to take another look at her. i rushed off to hail a cab.. |
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Holding back my tears.. i went home. Start to hunt for a new job for the next few days. She will still sms me and i will choose nt to reply her.. Upoun my fifth day upoun my resignation.. received a sms from her..
Jolyn: Hi want to meet for lunch as i am just around yr place... I was shocked when i received her sms.. debating with myself whelter i shd reply her... finally i replied her... Me:K... wru now? Jolyn: at yr place kopitiam. Me: c u in 10 mins time. Quickily i changed and rush to kopitiam to meet her... Jolyn: how is yr job hunting? Me: k lah, have sent out alot of resume.. Jolyn: btw... this is my wedding invitation to u...( she hand out her wedding invitation and i accepted it with a forced smile ba).. Me:K.. Jolyn: will u attend it?.. Me: yup. Jolyn thanks. After we lunch i accompany her to J8 to do some shopping. i tried my best to remain cheerful, normal as if nothing has happened. Somehow she sensed that i am just trying to be strong... Jolyn: r u upset? Me: nope i am mentally prepared already.. Jolyn: i am sorry.. Me: yr train is here... with that statement i shoo her to the train... Jolyn:bye... c u again.. |
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"Jolyn:r u upset?"
TS bro, are you absolutely sure you are not pissed off by that question. |
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good story! :)
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TS bro,
your story almost same as mine, but the ending is the same. sigh... |
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Soon i found a job again and begin my new learning curve, meanwhile she will still sms me and i will choose to avoid her sms at times. Deep in my heart, i still miss her but there is nothing much to be done le. Her choice has been made and i have to respect her decesion. Lan games and drinking sessions are being held almost every nite. Booze, liqour and cig are always the best med to numb myself though after u woke up, u will feel the pain coming back to yr heart again..... It is never an ending cycle and the day of her marriage eventually arrived. I still remember it is a sat. That day i am really restless and luckily my bros called me for gaming.
Paul: u free? join us at bugis now for gaming.. Me: On! Paul: steady, then later u can go and attend her wedding dinner. Me: yup. I went for lan gaming that day and as usual i cant focus well on my games. even kena knifed a few times by my bros during CS. that is the worst death a gamer can ever suffered! sigh... time flies and it is time for me to leave for the wedding dinner. Zhongyi: almost time for u to go. Paul: Later after dinner, call us we will still be around. Me: really? u guys going to wait for me. Paul: we know that we will be upset today... so we will stand by for u. Me: Thanks alot.. Jason: no gf nvm, have bros k. Pang: that is rite man! Me: ciao c u guys later! The dinner was held at marina south, Qian Xi lou, i was late for the wedding dinner that day reached almost 7.45pm... Jolyn was waiting anxiously for me at the entrance. She is beauitfully dressed in her wedding gown and somehow my heart bleeds when i know that the groom is nt me. Jolyn: Hi i thought u r nt coming le. Me: Today is yr big day, i will surely come. Jolyn: thanks I passed a angbao to her and she usher me to the table.. Before the dinner was served, wedding slides were shown and i dun feel gd watching all these slides and i will drink to drown my sorrows... nt too much of course, cant get drunk on this special day for her. Want to be drunk.. be drunk after her wedding dinner, outside! i told myself. She changed into her evening gown and she is stunning. |
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The toasting soon begin and when it comes to our table... i can notice her glancing at me... and i toast her happily( I do my best to pretend to be happy). i remember at that pt of time, i am struggling with myself. So long as she has decided on this happiness she wanted... so long as she is happy, i shd be happy for her too... The dinner soon ended much to my relief as it is a emontional touture for me to witness the entire marriage even though i told myself to let go of her......
Jolyn: thanks for coming... Me: may u have a blissful marriage... ( we r shaking hands and she is holding it tightly) Jolyn: Thanks... ( slowly she let go of her hands and i know the end has come) I left the wedding dinner and joined my bros at Boat quay. Thinking of the last date with her also at marina bay... my heart even aches even more... Paul: r u k? Me: K lah... any plans tonite? Jason: i am asking my gf and her friends along for a drink... Zhongyi: serious r they chio? Jason: shd be ba... Me: K... Jason: bro take this time to know more girls... she is married le. Paul: all rite! we have char bo today... but enough girls for all the 7 of us? Jason: together with my gf, total abt 5 girls. Paul: no worries, i will call 2 other girls along... Arrangements were soon made and the whole lot of us begin our drinking sessions while waiting for the girls. As usual i go out for a smoke and paul join me.. Paul: i can sense that u r very upset... Me: yup i do... Paul: cheer up bro... dun dwell in the past.. u have to move on. Me: difficult... Paul: of course it will be difficult if u seal up yr heart and feelings... Me: i know.... |
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more please!
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bro nice writing u have there... camp on and hope to see more =D
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The girls soon arrived. needless to say, the bros r excited as they scanned their eyes on them.
Kelvin: the girls all quite chio. well done jason Jason: let enjoy ourselves. That nite i drink furiously and focus on singing. seldom crack jokes. Cards were played after a couple of glassses of martell and other liqour, i soon feel high and start to join the games. Evelyn: care for a duet with me? Me: k u decide the song then. Evelyn: Guang Dao Zhi Nian Me: On lah! And we sang a duet.. while i am singing this song, my heart was filled with the memories of jolyn. the words she told me.. the places we went.. the hug at her void deck... came back to me............. Evelyn: u sang well Me: no lah, zhongyi can sing better. Throughout the ktv session, Evelyn is the only girl who i tok to most to ba.. During card games she would lose at times and i would da for her as she is nt a very gd drinker compared to others. i was too nearly knocked out as i knew that i have overdose myself with liqour. Towards the end of the session, almost every bro has found their target though some r nt so lucky with their hunting.. Evelyn: any plans after this? Me: sent u hm first. Evelyn: the nite is still young.. Me: huh but i am tired liao... Evelyn: Feel like going to sentosa... Me: at this hour? Evelyn: y nt? Me: k then. Soon we all left the pub, jason and paul have left with their gfs le.. the rest of them proceed to sent the girls back. we took a cab there and decided to go to siloso beach of sentosa... |
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Evelyn: erm.. can i ask u something
Me: sure Evelyn: u seem to be troubled Me: Y do u say that? Evelyn: can sense it from the songs u sing... all very sad de. Me: True. Evelyn: Lovesick? Me: sort of ba. Evelyn: dun think too much, time will heal everything. We spent a few hours at the beach toking to each other. Slowly i begin to share my past as she continued to probe further. she would always nod her head in understanding and i sent her hm that morning as it is rather late le/ early. The next 2 weeks.. i did nt received a single sms from jolyn on one of the nites she text me again.. Jolyn: hi how have u been? Me: K loh.. how abt u? Jolyn: Great, managed to do alot of shopping in japan. Me: That is great. |
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more please!
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Pls continue......
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TS, Got time pls continue~!
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pls don't stop!!!
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TS pls continue~~ :)
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Time seem to pass slowly... it have been 2 months since jolyn was married..
She text me a few times but i would choose to avoid her replying her at times. the fact of the matter is... i still cant get over her... Meanwhile.. Evelyn and i till remain as friends and even went out a few times together... But we never took a step further as i am still struggling with the past... There is once when i am having dinner with evelyn when i received a call from Jolyn..... Jolyn: r u busy now? can tok for a while?... Me: me having dinner... r u k?.. u seem troubled... Jolyn: having dinner alone? Me: nope with my friend... Jolyn: want to meet up later? Me: nt today ba as i am with my friend now... Jolyn: call me after u r done ba.. Me: k... Me end the call... having sensed that i am troubled... Eve remain quiet and soon she broke the silence... Eve: did she call u again.. Me: yup... Eve: u have nt got over her yet.. rite?... Me: yup i know.... |
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As I felt for u, but let it b water under d bridge, move on!!
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bro zerofighter.. I feel you brother..
thanks for sharing your past personal experiences with us.. |
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All the best bro, hope everything will be going on smoothly for you. is not easy for you but end of the day there is bros is supporting you, even i don know you personally but i wish you good luck man.
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Bro TS said that this is 8 years ago Liao.. The feelings might have changed.. Maybe he has moved on Liao? Time heal all wounds but it depends on the individual how long it will take. For me I think bro TS is here to reminiscence about the past and giving us one life lesson which , " time waits for no man " and " better strike if you don't want the girl you like to be sleeping with another man " .
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camping here!
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Love YR story :)
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TS, your story reminds me of my pass... I do actually dropped a tear or two upon reading. My pass was not the same as yours at all but ending a relation part hurts the most!
"Time will heal". I don't think a lot of people sees the true meaning of it. Yes, time will heal... heal what? Heal itself! Time doesn't stop for anyone! Does time heal your broken heart? Depends on how deep it was. Some are deep enough to have left scars that you will carry to your grave. I'm sure TS has gotten over the heart pain part after 8 years but the scar remains. I will mentally support you bro!!! |
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It been a while that I have posted u made me took up the pen .... Bro was there once and now I'm still in it I understand it hard to let go even if it the right thing to do... But bro threre one thing I dun understand if she was the one y did u not insist at the starting point before the marriage ??? What was the barrier that stop you from it??? For my case was I was nt ready as I'm young still and unstable wild but for your case I dun understand...
Ps. Is the school u taught know as the ri of the west??? |
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I feel for you bro... It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does. You can close your eyes to things you do not want to see. But u cant close your heart to things you do not want to feel.
Looking forward to your stories and hoping everything goes well for you :) |
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Being a understanding girl, Eve does not prode any further and we begin to
tok about other topics. Eve: Where would u like to go after dinner? Me: i want to attend church service... Eve: Can i join u but i am a non believer.. Me: k.. ththe at is fine... From there we took a bus to the church which is at Marine Parade. Along the way, we quite enjoy each other company as Eve is a very cheerful girl and she really cheer me up alot... I still remember that evening.. i feel happy.. emotionally fullfilled as it have been ages since there is anyone who accompany me for service... My ex used to attend with me.. she was a christian. But ever since the break up.. i avoid attending church at times as it will always remind me of her... memories.... i truly enjoyed service and sermon that evening.... Eve who is a non christian was patient enough to accompany me throughout the whole service.... After service... we went for supper nearby and we decided to stroll to East Coast... I have always loved the beach... loved watching the sunset of it enjoying the seabreeze.. Me: Thanks for accompany me to the service... Eve: I can sense the peace in your heart... |
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