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bro, your story super addictive leh !!! please continue.. :D

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good job, keep it up! :)

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The next day... as i am heading off to work.. i went with a heavy heart.. was heading towards the office when someone called me..

Jolyn: hey.. wait for me...
I turned my head and c her walking towards me and waited for her..
Me: Hi morning..
Jolyn: sorry cant meet u for dinner yesterday...
Me: it is k... btw how is the tok with him?
Jolyn: erm.. k lah...
Me: have u read the letter?
Jolyn: yup..

Somehow i sensed that she is cold and both of us head off quitely to the office.. We dun tok much that day.. things r slowly changing.. i can sense it deep in my heart... I decided to give her some time to sort out her thoughts and feelings... That will only be fair to her, i told myself. Anyway Zj came to sent her hm after work and again i went to the pubs with Paul and Pang to drown my sorrows...

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Was drinking heavily at the pub with my bros... songs were sung and jokes were cracked.. Laughter and wine does nt seem to ease the pain of the hearts..

Paul: r u k
Me: she is very cold to me...
Paul: sign she dun feel gd either.
Me: Yup, that is y i am giving her some time for herself...

At that moment my mobile rang..

Me: Hello
Jolyn: hi wru now?
Me: At boat quay..
Jolyn: drinking again... the background so noisy...
Me: hang on.. ( I left the pub in order to have a better reception)
Jolyn: r u k?... u sound tipsy..
Me: I am..
Jolyn: which part of boat quay r u in?
Me: Near to Mac that side..
Jolyn: Wait for me there at Mac.
Me: Huh...
Jolyn: i need to tok to u...
Me: k... ( went back to the pub)

Me: bro she is meeting me..
Paul: Great.. listen dun forgo this chance, have a gd tok with her.
Pang: shd we leave?
Zhongyi: of course we shd leave now...
Paul: settle the bill... stop drinking le...
Me: all rite.
Paul: bro remain steady.. any help call us.. we will be nearby drinking.
Me: Thanks.

There i say gdbye to my bros and head off to the mac.. decided to order a lemon tea while waiting for her... Within an hour she soon appeared... was debating with myself whelter i shd hold her hands or nt... finally i decided nt to... ( dun dare Ba)

Jolyn: u smell heavily of liqour...
Me: sorry was drinking abit just now..
Jolyn: sorry for hurting u...
Me: Nope nt yr fault...

We were strolling along the riverside of boat quay and she suddenly linked her arms in mine...

Jolyn: Promise me that u wun drink again..
Me: Difficult to promise...
Jolyn: If u drink, i will drink too, 2 times more than u!
Me: dun... bad for yr health..
Jolyn: what abt yrself then..

We sat down on the bench and i hold her hands tightly...

Me: how is the tok with him?
Jolyn: nt much he give in abit... said that he is willing to pay for 5 tables.
Me: Hmm
Jolyn: but i told him apart from this issue... feelings r amiss too... he is shocked when he heard that...
Me: do u still love him?( i looked tenderly in her eyes)
Jolyn: I dunno...( her expression in her eyes told me that she still love him)
Me: as i said... i will respect whatever decesion u make at the end of the day....
Jolyn: Thanks... she lied on my shoulder and i stroked her hair gently...

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How come i felt in the end, she just wan best of both worlds?

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It's just a story mate, enjoy the process & read with an open heart :D

If it's real anyway, if the lady can leave his fiance for another guy, she might leave him for the next guy..It goes on & on..i rather not complicate myself for thinking that & just read it - cos only waiting for the sexciting part :p

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A very moving story, Thanks for sharing bro, cheers .........

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That nite itself was peaceful and beauitful.. to me, i enjoy every moment with her... closing my eyes.. i feel tired... overdose with liqour but i did my best to keep myself awake and sober...

Jolyn: i am tired...
Me: do u want me to sent u hm?
Jolyn: Nope. just want to spent more time with u...
Me: K then ( Slowly she closed her eyes and was soon dozing off on my shoulder)

For myself i slowly dozed off too... she soon stirred...

Jolyn: u r tired too...
Me: abit bah..
Jolyn: 4am liao... so fast...
Me: do u want to go hm...
Jolyn: nope, can go to marina bay with me?..
Me: sure.

We took a cab to marina bay... along the way she lean closer to me... somehow i can sensed that she is deeply troubled... soon we reached there and once again i draw her to my arms...

Jolyn: dear...
Me: Yup..( my heart leap for joy as it is the first time she address me as dear..)
Jolyn: i feel loved and secure whenever i am with u.
Me: thanks... i too enjoy every single moment with u...
Jolyn: give me more time k...
Me: sure... no worries i will nt force u for an answer..

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keep it comin bro... really glued to ur posts... need to learn more of these to be able to gain a gal whom i love but aso dun dare to express much to her for fear of losin her.. any tips for me ma?? :o

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be sincere

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It is soon morning and i sent her hm after having breakfast together. The next few days is as normal.. we will work and chat with each other. Nothing more was said abt the outcome since i have promised her i would nt force her for an answer. Somehow i can sense that she is struggling with herself and all the more i do not wish to add on to her stress. Furthermore i have no chance to walk her home as Zj would always sent her hm after work.

However b4 she would leave with him.. she will still look back at me... and of course i dun feel gd either.. I avoid going to pubs for drinks and will turn to lan gaming with my bros instead. Parklane and Bugis are both my hang out joints. Every nite, i would use laughter and jokes to numb my pain deep inside my heart and my bros know that i am doing my best to remain cheerful though it is hurting...

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Bro zerofighter, I totally feel for you with what you say in your story so far. Sometimes such situations can really make you feel damn hurt inside. You love someone, but that person can't reciprocate back her feelings to you.

But nonetheless, this really can train up your patience and endurance when waiting for someone whom you feel that deserves it. I once went through a similar situation as you bro, can really understand how u feel. Don't give up on her yet....

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Bro your story is really good!!
I am addicted to it and we want more!
Really reminds me of myself 10 years ago except that both me & her were already ROM and every little time we have is like treasure found. We wish we have some kinda of magic wand to stop time!!

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Last advice I will expect to come out from an Ah Beng's mouth. :rolleyes::p

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As usual we would exchange sms after work.... though i am doing my best to suppress my emotions/ feelings for her... the last class is over, with the 2 of us in the office.


Jolyn: r u avoiding me?
Me: nope.. y did u said that?
Jolyn: u r cold towards me... and i dislike that feeling.
Me: i am trying to give u some personal space for yrself..
Jolyn: u said b4.. u wun force me for an ans.
Me: that is y i am avoiding u.. am i wrong in doing that?..
Jolyn: dunno....
Me: Think over what u want?.. face the questions bravely.. no pt avoiding them.
Jolyn: i know...

We left the office and she head off to the bus stop where Zj is supposed to pick her up. As usual, i went to parklane for games with my bros..

Paul: how r things?
Me: Bad...
Paul: Y?..
Me: she is struggling for an answer and i promised to give her time..
Paul: how do u feel abt the whole thing?
Me: she still love him.. i feel that i may lose her eventually..( i start to smoke away).
Paul: yr old habit come back again..
Me: sigh.. well.. liqour, cig... is the best medicine anyway...
Paul: cheer up bro.. let go back to our games...

When one is feeling down at love, his gaming shucks too. even camp can be sniped... chong also kena headshot... damn suay. I am losing my patience and was cursing over the game! was in one of the siao moods again... at that moment... i received a text from her...

Jolyn: i have thought alot these few days... guess we you yuan wu fen... nt fated for each other.

That moment when i read the sms... my heart freeze... i dun dare to take another look at the sms again cos it is really hurting... i remember i took a long time to reply her...

Me: Noted, i respect yr feelings. ( it is a full stop i indicated, not... cos i have nothing much to tell her already)