Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

Excellent story, keep it coming

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

Zhongyi: bro choose leh China or Gla? we r waiting for u..
Me: China... sorry...
Paul: something happend?
Me: bro game over...
Kelvin: make yrself clearer...
Me: u guys go ahead with the game.. i need to be alone.

I left the lan room for a smoke.. Paul came out...

Paul: what did she sms u?
Me: you yuan wu fen!
Paul: what is yr plans then?
Me: will tender in my resignation 2mr.. duno how to face her...
Paul: at this time when u just got promoted?
Me: Ever since my break up with jess.. i have lost my focus on work le. Now even worst... how to face her daily?
Paul: guess u need time to recover too...
Me: indeed i need time to get over from this shit.

That nite i prepare my resignation letter and tender the next day... using my leave to offset my notice period, i spent the last half day handing over my work to carol... Jolyn was shocked with my sudden decesion to leave...

Jolyn: y did u choose to leave at such a short notice?
Me: i am worn out with the recent events already.
Jolyn: is it due to my decesion?
Me: nothing to do with u.

With this statement. i left the office.

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

She rushed out of the office, trying to catch up with me..

Jolyn: i am sorry..
Me: nt yr fault... i am glad that u have come to an decesion.
Jolyn: I...
Me:say no more.( I looked tenderly in her eyes, wanting to hug her for one last time.. but i stopped myself, dun let yr emtionals get over yrself.. i told myself).

Nt daring to turn back to take another look at her. i rushed off to hail a cab..

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

Holding back my tears.. i went home. Start to hunt for a new job for the next few days. She will still sms me and i will choose nt to reply her.. Upoun my fifth day upoun my resignation.. received a sms from her..

Jolyn: Hi want to meet for lunch as i am just around yr place...

I was shocked when i received her sms.. debating with myself whelter i shd reply her... finally i replied her...

Me:K... wru now?
Jolyn: at yr place kopitiam.
Me: c u in 10 mins time.

Quickily i changed and rush to kopitiam to meet her...

Jolyn: how is yr job hunting?
Me: k lah, have sent out alot of resume..
Jolyn: btw... this is my wedding invitation to u...( she hand out her wedding invitation and i accepted it with a forced smile ba)..
Me:K..
Jolyn: will u attend it?..
Me: yup.
Jolyn thanks.

After we lunch i accompany her to J8 to do some shopping. i tried my best to remain cheerful, normal as if nothing has happened. Somehow she sensed that i am just trying to be strong...

Jolyn: r u upset?
Me: nope i am mentally prepared already..
Jolyn: i am sorry..
Me: yr train is here... with that statement i shoo her to the train...
Jolyn:bye... c u again..

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

"Jolyn:r u upset?"

TS bro, are you absolutely sure you are not pissed off by that question.

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

good story! :)

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

TS bro,

your story almost same as mine, but the ending is the same.

sigh...

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

Bro, of course i am upset, but i cant just tell her that i am upset rite.. so just have to put up a brave front ba.

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

Soon i found a job again and begin my new learning curve, meanwhile she will still sms me and i will choose to avoid her sms at times. Deep in my heart, i still miss her but there is nothing much to be done le. Her choice has been made and i have to respect her decesion. Lan games and drinking sessions are being held almost every nite. Booze, liqour and cig are always the best med to numb myself though after u woke up, u will feel the pain coming back to yr heart again..... It is never an ending cycle and the day of her marriage eventually arrived. I still remember it is a sat. That day i am really restless and luckily my bros called me for gaming.

Paul: u free? join us at bugis now for gaming..
Me: On!
Paul: steady, then later u can go and attend her wedding dinner.
Me: yup.

I went for lan gaming that day and as usual i cant focus well on my games. even kena knifed a few times by my bros during CS. that is the worst death a gamer can ever suffered! sigh... time flies and it is time for me to leave for the wedding dinner.

Zhongyi: almost time for u to go.
Paul: Later after dinner, call us we will still be around.
Me: really? u guys going to wait for me.
Paul: we know that we will be upset today... so we will stand by for u.
Me: Thanks alot..
Jason: no gf nvm, have bros k.
Pang: that is rite man!
Me: ciao c u guys later!

The dinner was held at marina south, Qian Xi lou, i was late for the wedding dinner that day reached almost 7.45pm... Jolyn was waiting anxiously for me at the entrance. She is beauitfully dressed in her wedding gown and somehow my heart bleeds when i know that the groom is nt me.

Jolyn: Hi i thought u r nt coming le.
Me: Today is yr big day, i will surely come.
Jolyn: thanks

I passed a angbao to her and she usher me to the table.. Before the dinner was served, wedding slides were shown and i dun feel gd watching all these slides and i will drink to drown my sorrows... nt too much of course, cant get drunk on this special day for her. Want to be drunk.. be drunk after her wedding dinner, outside! i told myself. She changed into her evening gown and she is stunning.

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

The toasting soon begin and when it comes to our table... i can notice her glancing at me... and i toast her happily( I do my best to pretend to be happy). i remember at that pt of time, i am struggling with myself. So long as she has decided on this happiness she wanted... so long as she is happy, i shd be happy for her too... The dinner soon ended much to my relief as it is a emontional touture for me to witness the entire marriage even though i told myself to let go of her......

Jolyn: thanks for coming...
Me: may u have a blissful marriage... ( we r shaking hands and she is holding it tightly)
Jolyn: Thanks... ( slowly she let go of her hands and i know the end has come)

I left the wedding dinner and joined my bros at Boat quay. Thinking of the last date with her also at marina bay... my heart even aches even more...

Paul: r u k?
Me: K lah... any plans tonite?
Jason: i am asking my gf and her friends along for a drink...
Zhongyi: serious r they chio?
Jason: shd be ba...
Me: K...
Jason: bro take this time to know more girls... she is married le.
Paul: all rite! we have char bo today... but enough girls for all the 7 of us?
Jason: together with my gf, total abt 5 girls.
Paul: no worries, i will call 2 other girls along...

Arrangements were soon made and the whole lot of us begin our drinking sessions while waiting for the girls. As usual i go out for a smoke and paul join me..

Paul: i can sense that u r very upset...
Me: yup i do...
Paul: cheer up bro... dun dwell in the past.. u have to move on.
Me: difficult...
Paul: of course it will be difficult if u seal up yr heart and feelings...
Me: i know....

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

more please!

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

bro nice writing u have there... camp on and hope to see more =D

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

The girls soon arrived. needless to say, the bros r excited as they scanned their eyes on them.

Kelvin: the girls all quite chio. well done jason
Jason: let enjoy ourselves.

That nite i drink furiously and focus on singing. seldom crack jokes. Cards were played after a couple of glassses of martell and other liqour, i soon feel high and start to join the games.

Evelyn: care for a duet with me?
Me: k u decide the song then.
Evelyn: Guang Dao Zhi Nian
Me: On lah!

And we sang a duet.. while i am singing this song, my heart was filled with the memories of jolyn. the words she told me.. the places we went.. the hug at her void deck... came back to me.............

Evelyn: u sang well
Me: no lah, zhongyi can sing better.

Throughout the ktv session, Evelyn is the only girl who i tok to most to ba.. During card games she would lose at times and i would da for her as she is nt a very gd drinker compared to others. i was too nearly knocked out as i knew that i have overdose myself with liqour. Towards the end of the session, almost every bro has found their target though some r nt so lucky with their hunting..

Evelyn: any plans after this?
Me: sent u hm first.
Evelyn: the nite is still young..
Me: huh but i am tired liao...
Evelyn: Feel like going to sentosa...
Me: at this hour?
Evelyn: y nt?
Me: k then.

Soon we all left the pub, jason and paul have left with their gfs le.. the rest of them proceed to sent the girls back. we took a cab there and decided to go to siloso beach of sentosa...

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

Evelyn: erm.. can i ask u something
Me: sure
Evelyn: u seem to be troubled
Me: Y do u say that?
Evelyn: can sense it from the songs u sing... all very sad de.
Me: True.
Evelyn: Lovesick?
Me: sort of ba.
Evelyn: dun think too much, time will heal everything.

We spent a few hours at the beach toking to each other. Slowly i begin to share my past as she continued to probe further. she would always nod her head in understanding and i sent her hm that morning as it is rather late le/ early. The next 2 weeks.. i did nt received a single sms from jolyn on one of the nites she text me again..

Jolyn: hi how have u been?
Me: K loh.. how abt u?
Jolyn: Great, managed to do alot of shopping in japan.
Me: That is great.

Re: A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

more please!