Originally Posted by misallocated
(Post 5326512)
Hi dear bro's out there,
the following experience of mine serves neither as a warning or as a precautionary tale. I'm writing this so as to better sort out my inner feelings and emotions.
In retrospect, I do not think that I am a person filled with lust and horniness. I have a steady girlfriend whom I intend to marry soon. But, just like any man out there, I do have the ocassional wants and needs to try something/someone else.
Till date, my forays into the commercial scene have been limited to KTV outings, massages with happy endings and some Freelancers. All in, I estimate that I would have had commercial sex with 10 to maybe 15 different sex workers over the last 3 years.
One common occurence amongst all of them is that I always use protection. Even for a blowjob, nothing goes barebacked. I guess that the sex education in our school system has played its part and I am a firm believer in safe sex, regardless paid or not, young or old. Till now....
I hooked up recently with a certain Freelance massuse whom I shall not reveal her name or details,to protect her's and my privacy. She's famous for giving top notch massages and ends it off with a decent handjob along with some roaming, top only. Also, she's known for NOT providing any blowjobs or sex to new or regular customers though my understanding is that some bros out that have tried.
Sometime this week, I arranged for a session with her. I am a pretty chatty guy being in the sales industry and after a number of sessions, we had become pretty accustomed and friendly so it was easy talking to her.After the massage, she continued with her handjob but somehow, this time, things were different.
Emotions ran high, I wasn't thinking straight , neither was she I think, one thing led to another she said it would be nice to have sex after such a long time. Thing was, there wasn't a condom around. Not being able to think straight, I just did it raw. Yeap, raw. Dumb as hell, you practise 3 years worth of safe sex and throw it out of the window in one session.
She allowed me to come inside, saying her period had just ended and it should be safe. Guess what ? yeap, came in her. Another dumb move. So thats 2 dumb moves in a row.
Why am I worried ? On the drive back, I was thinking...f**k..she says she doesn't do it with anyone. How the hell would I know if she did ? Even if not with her customers, what about her husband back in her hometown? He might not have been keeping it in his pants while she's away right?
She allowed me to do it raw and come inside probably says the either of 2 things. She's either very confident that Im safe and clean or she has really bad sex education knowledge. Either ways, it does nothing for me.
RIght now, I've got a headache, abit of sore throat, which I don't know whether to attribute to the f**king haze or have I really got it ? The dread A word....
I've been reading up, the risk of HIV increases during menstruation, and I definitely saw some blood stains on the towel after the dumb act. I was in her for less than 2 mins max , cause the handjob prior had gotten me seriously aroused and pumped up. Still is that even a consolation or redeeming factor ?
Yeap, I know, get tested. After so much reading , I know exactly where, how, the procedures to get tested. I will go get tested. But I can only do it in a one month time and further confirm the results in 3 months. How the fuck is time going to pass with all the pessimistic thoughts running through my head ?
I'm fucked....
Stupidity comes with a fucking price....deal with it.
Will be updating my post detailing my thoughts and feelings as the day goes by....just to string them into words I guess....
Take care guys.
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