A girl whom i dun dare to love
 

Went alone to the beach a few nites ago... memories of the past seem to flow back to my mind again looking at the watch she has gave it to me.. i sank deeper in my memories with her...

Jolyn: One of the reasons u still cant forget her is u always wear the clothes she buy for u. and this watch... wiill do some shopping with u...
Me: hopefully it will help.
Jolyn: btw, my uncle give me 2 watches... one i give to zijian... another one for u. c whelter it fits u..
Me: yup it fits nicely. Thanks.
Jolyn: dun think too much le... must focus on yr work more.. the monthly report u sent to julie again has some mistakes again.
Me: Noted
Jolyn: 2mr after work will go shopping with u. hehehe.. u can dump all the clothes she have brought for u liao.

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The next day after work we went shopping together at centrepoint robinson.. She was very patient and choose different clothes to try.. in the end, i managed to get myself 3 new shirts and a pants.

Jolyn: u look gd in all these..
Me: thanks for the time
Jolyn: dun mention it.. we r collagues mah.
Me: how is the preparations of marriage with Zj?
Jolyn: sigh dun mention abt it... we have some arguments abt the tables again
Me: huh what is it?
Jolyn: he wanted to take back the angbao money for the tables he have paid for my family..
Me: but it wun look nice in this way..
Jolyn: that is y.. cos of this issue we have been having arguments. my mum does nt approve of this idea of course...
Me: u r caught in a difficult postion...

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Disclaimer:

The names of the charecters have been changed. I am trying to pen down the details of the story as far as i remembered cos it happened at least 8 years ago liao.

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As days went by.. we always go out together during our off days.. lunch and shopping together and she has been very supportive to me during these days.. my emotional support after my break up with my ex.. and slowly i begin to sense some feelings for her... perhaps we r too close le and we can share to each other our thoughts... the moment i knew something is amiss... i was plunged into another emotional turmoil... cos i know it is impossible between us. she is already rom at that pt of time and so i would start to drown my sorrows at K pubs rite after work every nite. There is once as usual i am drowning my sorrows at the ktv pub when i received a text from her...

Jolyn: r u all rite? dun drink too much as u still have to work 2mr.
Me: i have something to tell u...
Jolyn: Yes...
Me: Nothing.. i am k no worries.

At that pt of time, i nearly wanted to confess my feelings to her but somehow i dun dare. cos first of all.. it will nt help matters.. Secondly i may even lost this friendship with her.. that nite i drank myself silly, was determined to numb myself with liqour.. My bros with me knew that something was amiss but did nt dare to probe much as they knew that i am in one of those moods again...

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1st camper reporting to u, sir. :)

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It looks nice, dont need to hav sex scene im also willing to read it

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Nice. But I must add that love is free. You don't need to borrow from the bank.

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Aww, i like this story - Looking forward to nxt updates..

Happy New Year All.. :)

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I like it..waiting for more.

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Nice start... more to come pls... :D

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Nice. Please continue.

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Camping for more here..cheers

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Camping for more here

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camping for more...

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Joining in the camp. Do continue.

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Hope TS come back soon.

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Camping for more from TS .

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Frankly speaking... i do enjoy her company very much as a friend and collague.. she is always kind and understanding.. though we know each other for less than half a year but she can read my thoughts really well..

Jolyn: hey.. dun think so much.. (she gestured me by flashing her hands across me).
Me: she call me again..
Jolyn: i know as yr hp is vibrating from morning till now.
Me: Shd i ans the phone?
Jolyn: I ans for u...
Hi, Jolyn here.. jessie is it.. he is shopping with me but he have went
to the gents.. k then. bye.
Me: how what did she said?
Jolyn: she sound disappointed to know that i am with u...
Me: it is her who wanted to back out of the marriage...
Jolyn: Guess she is nt ready for marriage yet... at times girls would feel fearful...
Me: what abt u? did u look forward to marriage with Zj..
Jolyn: erm.... gd question... nope at times i cant imagine facing him with the 4walls daily...
Me: it is bad to have this fear...
Jolyn: u know... he is such a miser... from dating till now.. only brought me a soft toy while he is in japan and guess what he told me...
Me: what?
Jolyn: dear i am passing by this shopping mall and they have a sale there and i brought u this soft toy...

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Me: Serious?.. did he really make this statment.
Jolyn: yup and i am feeling... only have sale then brought something for me..
Me: Hmm i understand how u feel...
Jolyn: Anyway that is the only gift he has brought for me...
Me: hmm. actually girls have their spending power too... but they still prefer
bfs who is willing to buy them gifts... that show he is willing to spent
on u cos he cares for u...
Jolyn: Precisely... at times... i dun need him to buy any expensive things
me... but the impression that he gave to me is he is always so stingy
de... compared to my ex who dun earn much but is willing to buy me
gifts until i have to tell him to stop.
Me: Well it is the thoughts that matter...
Jolyn: that is y i told Zj that though u dun earn much.. at least u r willing
to pay for the wedding tables and bear much of the renovation costs
of the house. Sigh...

After toking to her.. i really have an impulse to confess to her my feelings...
but somehow i dun dare and so i continued to drown my sorrows at the pub
every nite after work with one or 2 of my buddies who know me and handle
me well..

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Paul: bro r u k? u have been drinking alot...
Me:bro i am troubled....
Paul: Nt cos of Jessie rite as it seems that heart is dead towards her le.
Me: bro u really know me well...
Paul: that is what brothers are for!
Me: i fall in love with a girl..
Paul: Then go after her lah! Go for it bro!
Me: but then she is already Rom....
Paul: is she pretty have big neh neh and gd figure?
Me: ah.. i did nt notice that..
Paul: Whahha... when a man really love a girl.. he wun notice all these. Looks like this time u r really in love with her..
Me: but what is the use? she is already married..
Paul: does she know yr feelings for her..
Me: siao wait scared her off how? she is my collague..
Paul: hang on.. r u referring to Jolyn the girl who always go out with u latelly..
Me: That is rite... i am referring to her.
Paul: Who know she may feelings for u too..

I nearly choked on my beer as i heard this statement from my bro..

Me: u r nt kidding..
Paul: Well u never know...do u need my help in scanning her since u r too blind to c anything now...

Just a brief background of this bro of mine.

He is a wise man of charecter. i still remember there are a few girls classmates who will intro their potential bfs to him and will ask him what do he think of them? And usually he is always rite in his precise judgement. For most of us bros... everytime we have problems going after girls he would always offer us very gd advice in chasing after girls... Of course he himself have many gfs though he is nt gd looking...

Me: Gd idea... She is having a seminar conducted by the company tmr.. i suggest we drive her hm.
Paul: K... we just pretend that we happened to be in that area playing lan gaming and we will just suggesting senting her hm.. that at least will nt scared her off...
Me: Thanks bro.
Paul: Remember it is nt the end of the battle yet... all girls can be sianed...

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Good effort..thanks:)

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Keep up the good work TS :D

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joining the camp, and keep it up TS :D

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Damn! This Paul guy sounds like my old poly mate.

"Got bf, can dump. Got husband, can divorce. Got kids, can disown.":eek:

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Appreciate your effort. Please go on.

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The next day i met up with Paul in the afternoon.

Paul: where is the course being conducted?
Me: at carlton hotel.
Paul: Great.. we go to parklane for cs first..
Me: K.

That day is the worst game i have ever have.. cant focus... kena sniped by enemies left rite center.. cant focus at all.

Paul: bro steady leh...
Me: bro sorry i cant focus today..
Paul: steady bro. Let go out for a smoke.
Me: Gd idea.. that will calm me down abit.
Paul: am i hearing the wrong stuff? i thought u have quit already.
Me: One puff or 2 is nt going to kill me lah.
Paul: call her now... remember the plan i told u..
Me: Yup.

Me: How is the seminar today?
Jolyn: boring but at least they provide refreshments.
Me: what time will the seminar end?
Jolyn: abt 7pm ba....y?
Me: Me with Paul now... was thinking of driving u hm since we r at parklane
now playing games.
Jolyn: but it wun be conv for u as i stay in CCK.
Me: No worries we r going to JE to meet up with our friends later. so we r along the way.
Jolyn: k ba.
Me: c u then.

After i am done.. i end the call.

Paul: how is it?
Me: she nearly refused as it is nt along the way.
Paul: everything is within my expecations. Luckily u managed to follow my plan well.
Me: Thanks bro.

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Paul: Still have abt 2 hours to kill... want to grab a bite.
Me: Gd idea

Slowly we went to Mac at kallang and have it in the carpark. My bro switched on the cd and it was playing Dong Ji Nian Ge(Remember this Korean show).

Me: bro.. i really dunno what i did is the rite thing.
Paul: Would u still think of yr ex if your gf treat u well?
Me': Of course not lah.
Paul: The ans is very obvious. rite?
Me: hmmn... i get what u meant now.
Paul: She is failling into a routine order.. break off, get attached and married,
everthing seem simple but feelings is amiss. The X factor is missing.
Me:Is that the reason y she dun look forward to marriage?
Paul: Bingo if nt she will nt compare her ex to Zj now.
Me: bro i am torn apart....
Paul: no worries.. just do according to yr feelings ba. it is time for us to make a move now.
Me: bro hang on let me tapo for her a Fish burger meal for dinner first.
Paul: k.

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Pleasantly erotic. Thanks.

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Soon.. we reach there and i call her again.

Me: Jolyn, we reach le.
Jolyn: K give me 5 more mins, btw can u sent Yvonnne hm too?
Me: sure. With that i end the phone call.

Within 5 mins, Jolyn soon appeared with Yvonne and they board the car. A short intro was done and Paul as usual is a gd ice breaker! We were soon chatting in the car as we were heading to Tiong Bahru to drop Yvonne off at her place.

Me: I tapo yr favourite, fish burger meal with lots of chilli for yr fries.
Jolyn: Thanks i am hungry.
Me: u look tired to me.
Jolyn: yup and 2mr mroning still have classes with the lower sec students.
Paul: Lower sec students hard to manage rite.
Jolyn: yup very naughty de. but still have him.. he will go in and scold them if they get too noisy.
Paul: Guess he dun want u to overstrain yr voice when u r teaching them.
Jolyn: btw r u guys going drinking again?
Paul: Nt today ba
Jolyn: hey dun drink too much k... paul can u keep an eye on him in case he drank too much again.
Paul: sure, no worries i will take care of him.

At that moment, the track Dong Ji Nian Ge was on again..

Jolyn: hmm, i love this song
Me: i love this song too...

Soon we reach her place and i sent her to the lift.

Me: c u 2mr. have a early rest.
Jolyn: u too dun drink today k?
Me: I promise.
Jolyn; Gd boi.

Paul is waiting in the car and he smiled at me.

Me: bro how is it?
Paul: It is quite positive.
Me: Serious?
Paul: Boat quay again?
Me: Nope no drinking today as i just promise her.
Paul: Anyway it is gd nt to drown yr sorrows too much. She is concerned for u too.
Me: Perhaps only as a friend ba.
Paul: didnt u notice her looks in eyes whenever she tok to u?
Me: nope i didnt
Paul: U r an idoit! Better take action fast if nt her chinese wedding is nearer to the doorstep now

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Very nice love story! Can't wait to read the whole story. More please!!:)